The Exotic

When I was in Fordham ... The STEP Program to be exact.... One of my advisors called me a young stud because of all the women that flocked to me.

Back then, I guess there was something to the madness, because I invited the attention. I needed it.

I still do need it, to a point. I get the attention from every which way. My children, mostly, give me that much attention, and I in turn, give as much of myself back (to my kids) .

Am I a selfish person, for now, I do not want to give attention to just anyone who falls into my lap. Am I not being the person I set out to be at the beginning of the day, when I shut people down. And when I shut folks down... why should I have a guilty feeling welling up in my gut, like I've wronged someone who means that much to me, that at the end of the day....

I can't even remember their names

Your youngest is under the weather

I have a great responsibility .... being a father has proven to be more demanding than any job I could have ever hoped for. I expect a promotion in about 30 years.

I love you Jamere, Jacob, and Zalichi.